The Emptiness of My Heart

The Emptiness of My Heart

Losing someone you dearly love, hurts so much.  Even though their journey has turned toward an everlasting blessing, our journeys must continue to move on without them.  This is a much easier said than done situation.  After six years this week, I still miss my Mom, Em.  There is no doubt it was Em’s time for peace due to her condition, but it just seems we are never really ready to let them go.  My piece this week addresses that pain, but it does display how there is a great hope after the pain.  My prayer this week is for you to know you are not alone.  If your loss was tough and has been hard, know there is hope.  Time does distance the hurt to some degree.  However, know most of all that we were blessed to love, know, and share these special individuals. Letting them go is part of this painful process.  God’s love be with you this week as you miss your special soul.

The Emptiness of My Heart

There was an empty void in her soul.

Time would not heal quick enough the spirit that once rested within her heart.

The deep void brought her sadness.

She just could not hold back the tears.

She wept for days.

 

And she could not fill the space left by the one she loved.

She so missed their voices, their calls, their smiles, their hugs, their tales, and their laughs.

She laughed with others.

She shared with others.

She accepted their hugs and exchanged smiles.

But it just did not fill up that missing space.

 

Will time plug this void with others?

Or is time responsible for leaving this space so this one is never forgotten?

Is this space suppose to get smaller?

It is as if you lack one more stitch on the picture to set the scene.

Will one more stitch complete the quilted patterns?

Maybe there is the piece of puzzle that draws the other pieces to complete the picture?

Or maybe it is to be left out in order to verify their life here on Earth.

 

Maybe the void is to be there.

Whichever way fate takes it, and it hurts.

It hurts to lose that one that has enriched your life.

The soul that made you dig deeper for your true self.

The one that sacrificed so that you might live a better and richer life.

The one who demonstrated unconditional love.

 

You will be the void that I will never fill.

Because your life stood for so much more than a working, breathing soul.

Your life represented me,

And when you left you took part of me with you.

My soul will always hurt for this.

And it will mourn for your touch.

 

My soul would have it no other way.

But to have known you, loved you, and shared time with you on this Earth.

And my soul holds great hope in that void.

Because it knows one day that reunion will be again.

And once more the empty space will contain your love.

The void will be filled to complete the picture.

Lori Rennae Hickman Chapman

Remember we are so thankful for the special souls that come into our lives.  If we did not mourn them for their existence, life would be so wrong.  Let that mourning turn into the true celebration of that individual.  My love goes out to you as you remember your loved ones.  And Em—Happy Heavenly Birthday this week!  Thank you for continuing to watch over me through the grace of God!

Love,

Rennae

 

 

Journey

 

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